The Best Decision I Have Ever Made

     THE BEST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE

                                    Trusting yourself is really important to be successful and achieve the goals you are striving for. Making you proud of yourself. It gives you the courage to do what you want including making decisions for yourself without asking for the approval of other people.  Self-trust gives you the faith and confidence to believe that there's nothing you can't do. And also it makes you comfortable to live, act and behave the way you want thinking that you know what you are doing. It's really good having this kind of positive attitude.

                         In my case, I think the trust that I have to myself became an overflowing self-confidence having the belief that I can do everything without the help of others. I can finish the tasks given to me without seeking help from the people around me. I always decline their help. I am afraid to make mistakes but I'm also afraid to admit it even more. I forced myself to do what is asked from me even if it's hard and seems impossible because this is what they are expecting from me. Unfortunately, it crashed me down and I failed hard. I tried, but it's not a success. I became the irresponsible person I never thought I will be.

                                 As I reflect, I learned where did I go wrong. I've always been quiet about what I am feeling. Expressing myself is hard for me so I keep things to myself as long as I can. I don't want to tell anyone whenever I'm experiencing difficulties. I kept it all holding the fact that I can do everything. Maybe because the pride is speaking but more on the pressure I am feeling not wanting to disappoint everyone around me. I reflect, freshen up and start anew.

                                    Through this realization, I came up to the best decision I have ever made in my life. I chose to open up and admit my mistakes. Through this, slowly, it became easy for me to do my responsibilities. I learned that everyone has weakness and  the saying 'no man is an island' means that no one can live on their own. I don't have superpowers to do everything. Needing someone's help doesn't mean you give up but a brave move because you want to learn and also accepting your weaknesses.

                              From what I have experienced, I can say that my story is somewhat connected to Alfredo Salazar in the story entitled Dead Stars by Paz Marquez-Benitez. We both experienced difficulties. We tried but still failed. He was once blinded on assuming that he's in love with Julia and I believed that I can do things without the help of other people. We relied on the things we once believed that led us to failure and pain. But this illusion disappeared as we made the decision that changed our lives not just for the better but for the best.